ageha: Made@Jounins (Misc ★ Osen)
So, exams are over (in fact, a week and a half ago...) :DV Though not all the marks are known still :XX I've been trying to keep me a bit busy these days, going to an amusement park, out for a couple of drinks or clubbing or even doing some pajama/birthday parties with my group of friends (also known as how it took ages to find the time counter in the nikon...).

Starting last week, this July I'm working in the lab of the Fisheries department of my uni in order to gain some curriculum experience and in hopes of being able to get some free election credits. Which basically means feeling like a nuisance and trying to be of help lol At least eels are cute (I'll be sad when they kill them ;____;) and tomorrow I'm in a congress, so maybe I'll be able to put some of my English knowledge in use lol

Next week [livejournal.com profile] kaede_hikari and her bf are coming, so I'm looking forward to that too <333333 Though probably we just will be able to properly meet during the weekend ;________; Can't believe it's been nearly a year already!

Then on the 6th of August I'm going to Canada in an organized trip and I'm hoping to be able to meet [livejournal.com profile] girlearthless in Toronto <333333 (basically this is what I'm looking forward the most with the trip lol). Then I'll be returning to Spain just to go to my parents town, where I'll bore myself to death with no net.

During September I'm either returning to the lab or working a bit, depending on wether they call me or not :XXX I've been spending a lot lately so I hope they will... I just couldn't work the whole summer this time :X And probably one weekend of October I'll be flying over to Rome to meet [livejournal.com profile] midori_kibou if Ryanair is nice and offers those 10 euro trips I love 8DV

And that's all! I'll try to be more active and reply more, but please bear with me :D I feel I need a fandom entry soon so I won't wound up talking alone lol (have some poporo?)
ageha: Made@Jounins (Misc ★ Camera)
Just one exam left! *cheers*

These days I'm going to the neighbourhood library, since they ask for Students ID in the uni (not my uni, of course lol) one. This one's a bit further and only 5 mins away from the beach woes. Here are some pics from the way there (event though no one cares lol)

Piccies! )

On the other hand omg Prologue of Patch *____________* I know we have the previews of the PV and all that but omg I'm still fixed on those blurry keitai videos. Just. Oh god. It looks so pretty you know? Like, PV or dramas have a different atmosphere altogether: the ambientation, the camera angles, the photography, the possible YokoHina interaction... It makes me a little sadface I didn't choose something more artistic as a major, but let's face it, I lack the talent nor the backbone to do something of the sort. I am a person who likes to follow a leader and just to as she's told. Responsabilities stress me so much because I always strive for perfection. But yeah, shiny *___* And I've been working on this post for so long that the SCP performances are already out! So a couple of thoughts:
  • WW: Man, they look SO HAPPY! Alissa pointed out that they always do but it was like, something that really hit me this time, how much fun they were having and how it looked like they were about to burst laughing. Also, I can has Kura tummy *___* and wtf that hip roll, Ryo lol
  • BJ: It just felt like Eden II *laughs* Which, of course, it's good! I love this song but I always feel it's a really hard one to sing, for some reason. But anything with instruments will have my approval :DV

Changing of subject again, anyone who knows me will know that I hate conflicts. I avoid them. I try to ignore them until I have to face them. And this time has come. The issue is well, to keep it short, a month or so ago people from my class were going to have dinner and then clubbing - I couldn't go to the dinner, so with J and E, who couldn't either because they had a project to do, we planned to go later to the party and meet at 23:20 at a underground station. At about 9 I receive a message from J telling me that they won't be able to come, so I am all emo and decide to go to sleep early to avoid self-destructive issues. I am awoken not even an hour later (about 11:45) with a phone call from E, asking why aren't we there (I am always extremely punctual) and nearly crying because everything closes at 12 ans she couldn't go back to her home, that is in the outskirts. I tell her to hurry and come to my house, so the thing is - they had a fight and J sent that message to... well, fuck her up, being myself a co-victim. You can't imagine how angry I was. So, from this day on I kind of... ignored J, until two days ago she sent me a text saying "You've been rather cold, I want to talk to you after exams". And I am like... WELL I DON'T. It's just. Urgh. I hate this =_______________=

Also, we wanted to go to China as a family trip, but everything is booked and the remaining prices are too high - so with mom we started searching for other places (like Canada or New York) and then dad got angry because he wanted to go to China. WTF. It seems like I'm the adult one here, always trying to plan things in advance and adapting... *sighs* I just feel that whenever I announce any project I have, it inevitably ends in a disaster...

So, that was probably most boring entry ever. Kudos if you read it all lol Some cute fanart to make up for it!
 
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ageha: Made@Jounins (Misc ★ Under my umbrella)
I think lately I've been having a turning 20's crisis - the kind where you can't stop thinking about everything you've failed to accomplish so far: no boyfriend, no great teenager adventures, no astounding academic marks. And I know I have done things but I can't shrug off this feeling of being stuck and tat everyone is being moving forward but me and I'm here, stuck. That's one of the reasons I've been such a bad LJ-friend lately - I really feel I can't comfort anyone when I myself I'm feeling like most selfish person in the world. Long time no see, self-hate.

The other is about the scholarship I want to get once I finish uni to do a master in Japan. It is a very, very difficult one to get since there are only like, 10 for the whole country. And my marks are just average so I'm feeling a lot of pressure to improve them - and the more pressured I feel, the more I procrastinate. I also need two recommendation letters, so I asked one of my teachers if I could work with him this summer. He accepted, so now I feel doubly stressed to have a good mark on that subject :X On the good side, he was the runner-up for the rector of our university and is the director of a couple of departments, so his words have a certain weigh.

On a brighter side, it has been approximately two years since I joined the Eito fandom. It is the first fandom I've really participated in, and even though I'm still a newbie in a lot of things, I think I've been really fortunate - not only being able to attend to six (!!) concerts, but also for having been able to meet you all. Thank you for being there <3 Sometimes, I really wish to join you all when you say "Eighter forever!" but I'm scared that will break the spell. It's a word I don't really live, forever - because I can never quite say it without feeling it's a white lie, because who knows what will happen?

And last of all, I opened a graphics journal [livejournal.com profile] itsukamata and a flickr I might never use, but *spams*

<8!
ageha: Made@Jounins (Ohkura ★ Darkness in his soul)
Seems the problem with the laptop is that the fan isn't working properly, so when it heats up, the computer freezes (as Win7 consumes less, it did manage to work longer). I should send it to the technical service, but it is on Madrid and god knows how much it will take..

Also, next week is the Holy week here, so my parents have decided to go to the town, where I have no net ): So... halfway through the week, I'll disappear. I hope I come back alive.

Also *grabby hands*
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ilu An-an.
ageha: Made@Jounins (Maru ★ Concentration)
Today snowed *____________* I had never seen so much snow in Barcelona, it is EXTREMELY rare. I wanted to take my Nikon out, but I didn't want to break it so I didn't XD Still have to buy the UV filter! So here are some photos from my balcony:

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A couple more )

Classes were cancelled because they couldn't assure us we'd be able to return later (My college isn't in the city, but up in the mountains) and tomorrow morning lab has been cancelled too. I was able to return home safely (though packed like anchovies) but in the news it says that a lot of people were stuck for hours in the train or inside their cars, unable to go anywhere :/

Starlight

Jan. 23rd, 2010 12:38 am
ageha: Made@Jounins (Eito ★ Hold my hand)
I'll probably neglect the commenting like I've been doing on my latests posts, but I'd really like to hear everyone out :DV Meme from [livejournal.com profile] chimericalyours and [livejournal.com profile] la_soffitta:

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything. Even anything you want me to do (for you?) that you couldn't/can't ask non-anon.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like ♥


Monday is the first final of the six I have. Feeling extremely nervous, especially when my concentration cracks and I spend hours looking at the same page and I'm all like 'shit I can't waste time like that'. I'm prone to have anxiety attacks lol

(Why do I post the most when I'm on a hiatus, I wonder)

おやすみ!
ageha: Made@Jounins (Ryo ★ Sadness)
I've just come back and I already miss Japan

Cut for some emotional crap; )

Will probably make a trip post later.
ageha: Made@Jounins (Yasu ★ Smile like you mean it)
Merry Christmas to everyone <3 And for those who don't celebrate, spend a fantastic day anyway :DDD
So, this was my present:
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Tea set *_____________* And also, some clothes and money to go to one of the cons :DV

Do tell what you have received so far!
ageha: Made@Jounins (Eito ★ concert)
So yes, this is about Kanjani's countdown concert. Just out of impulse, I looked how much it would cost to go this winter - and if I go from the 28 to the 7, it's 520 €, which is quite very affordable. The letdown? I have to study - my finals start on the 25 of January and my holidays only last from the 24 to the 6 (thus I'd only have four days + plane flight, if I manage not to sleep through all of it and somehow concentrate). Technically I could somehow study from the 2 to the 6 in Japan, but it's unlikely that I'd be able to resist the shinyness that is Japan. And I don't even know if my parents would approve - if I could return the 2 or 3 they wouldn't mind, but then it gets helluva expensive and given the situation...

So it's once again, heart versus head. I know what I should do, but damnit, I really want to go. I have people who can ballot for me, so that's not the problem. I should wait for summer like I had planned, but I'm heckshit scared that this time, for some reason only JE can understand, they won't have a summer tour because NEWS will be touring or something. I just really don't know >________>

Sorry I still haven't replied to the last post! But I will, I promise >______>

Edit: My mother's input "Do what you want, but if you fail any of the subjects, you're not returning to Japan this summer. It's you who has to know if you can do all the work before going" So, it's up to me >___>
ageha: Made@Jounins (Eito ★ Futari)
So, tomorrow [livejournal.com profile] kaede_hikari and [livejournal.com profile] nira_chan will arrive home to spend some says in Barcelona :DDD This means, I probably won't be around until Monday evening so you probably won't hear about me (not that anyone will notice, given my lack of commenting lately lol)

So, to make this a little less short - the PV preview. The hairstyles are so fantastically fugly that I love them to pieces <3 Like the clothes, they are so sparkly and un-wearable <333 Everyone is too handsome and cute, damnit >____________> Something must be wrong with my head, I know. But yeah <3 Thank you [livejournal.com profile] girlearthless for failing with me, the lack of sleep was totally worth it <3 Also, the fact that the producer was Yoko but the voice was clearly not his (plus, the English was perfect) amuses me to no end. I'm easily pleased, as you can see - I really can't wait for the full version!

Spend a fantastic weekend (yes I know this is a couple of days early) and take care ♥
ageha: Made@Jounins (Kinki kids ★ Tsuyoshi: Yellow)
*types down*

Hello! :D? I'm writing this in a piece of paper at work because it's really quiet (no clients :O!) even though I'm alone. So, yet another RL update!

Uni: Still missing a mark, the one I'm afraid of failing D: It's been more than a month already (it was our first exam) but I'm not sure I want to know it either LOL The other five went fine~~
Unrelated but not really, it's a bummer than I don't have a 2-weeks holiday after February exams like they do at most of the other uni's. Mum said she would have liked to take me to Japan to see the cherry trees blossom WOES

Work: I'm starting 40 hours/week starting next week (aka death). I have double turn on two days so it will be pretty hectic. I keep thinking this is for Japan in order to endure it LOL Oh, life. On other news, the other day (finally!) there wasn't any extra/missing money at the end of the dat (if ant Spanish reader knows the translation to "cuadrar caja" I'll be forever grateful. Basically, it's the difference between the money you are supposed to have and the one you really have.)
Also, two of my coworkers told me I resemble Anne Hathaway form the "The princess diaries" film. Counting them, it's been like... 7-8 people who have told me in all my life? I feel flattered <3

Going out: Yesterday I went clubbing to a gay disco with some gay friends (I was literally the only hetero of the group but I didn't feel out of place at all <3) Fun times. I kept thinking that Yasu would have loved the place LOL Uni gay friend kept hitting on high school friend. I was amused. Also, I thing this is the first time I have... touched?groped? so much flesh because the dance style there is "perreo" (my lovely dictionary tells me it's 'juke' in english) LOL They also gave us a condom with the entrance ticket which I don't think I'll use in a very long time. I exchanged mine with one of my friend so he'll think of me when he gets some LOL As always, I was hit on by weird guys (it's a ritual already) but one of the waitresses invited me to a drink :DDDD
Also, tomorrow I'll be dressed as a maid for the maid café in a con. We also have a karaoke with JE songs :D I sneaked a couple of Shiina Ringo's too : DDD

Random: The girl I tutored called me the other day to thank me because she passed her exans, It was so--- weird, but it also made me happy.

Also, I received a package! Photo of the goods~~~Yeah, I still didn't have the DVD, ok? CD's are [profile] kaede_hikari 's


And that's all! Last month's (?) life resumed in less than 1000 words.

<3!!

ETA: people on twitter already know, but the husband of my friend's sister was manager of Ellegarden ;A;


ageha: Made@Jounins (Ohkura ★ Sumer scent)
Exams are over, so now I have three months of holidays until my second year at uni starts :DV I've started work today too- I just work 30h/week as a cashier, so I'm not earning that much, but hopefully it will kind of finance my trip to Japan next summer? I hope I don't fail any subject, because this means I'll have to study during the summer for September exams D: Keep your fingers crossed for me!

I've only slept three hours today, so I'm heading off to have a nap. Sorry for being such an awful commenter this past month (specially this past week!) D: I'll try to comment a little bit to this past entries tomorrow?

<3!!
ageha: Made@Jounins (Kinki kids ★ Tsuyoshi: Entangled)
Going away during the weekend, so I won't be around. Also, I'm starting to enter the final exams!hiatus. I'll start commenting less and less (maybe you've already noticed that) and in two weeks, I probably won't comment at all. This will drag on until June ends, I'm afraid D:

Take care, everyone &hearts;
ageha: Made@Jounins (Eito // YokoMaru)
I've really got no other reason to post but to say that I'm loving all the eito love that has been spreading around lately. I just can't wait until the album is released, specially with the yummy preview from the CM *_____* Which brings me to the point, will I be able to wait until my album(s) arrive? I'm weak when it comes to that, so I've been thinking that I'll reserve the two makings and the solo songs for when they arrive. I've already listened to all the radio previews + the solo PV, so it seems the most logical thing to do? I guess XD

I'd comment to all the eito related-programs (latest can!Jani, Utanii end, subbed Hissatsu...) but I know that I won't be able to manage something different that fhjdhfdskjhfksjdfhksjdhkfdsjfhdkh *___________________* And incoherent blabbering. My mother already thinks I'm crazy because whenever a news is published, I start squeeing incontrolabely and jumping. Or kissing my posters, which I admit it's a bit freakish.

Thank you for all of you who commented to the previous entry &hearts; I'm not very used to that happening either, so I think I just won't pick the phone up until he gets the clue :)

Also, the other day I went to a Japanese restaurant with my mother (♥) and on the way back I bought some Japanese sauces + curry in a Asiatic supermarket, three books and some clothes. So, because  [livejournal.com profile] chimericalyours asked, there are two photos of my new dress :) Sorry for the bad lighting, I took them after arriving home from the uni. Soooooooo, you can now see how I look like! (not like I intended to make it a secret, but I'm just not very fond of taking photos) :P

ageha: Made@Jounins (Eito // YokoMaru)
I've really got no other reason to post but to say that I'm loving all the eito love that has been spreading around lately. I just can't wait until the album is released, specially with the yummy preview from the CM *_____* Which brings me to the point, will I be able to wait until my album(s) arrive? I'm weak when it comes to that, so I've been thinking that I'll reserve the two makings and the solo songs for when they arrive. I've already listened to all the radio previews + the solo PV, so it seems the most logical thing to do? I guess XD

I'd comment to all the eito related-programs (latest can!Jani, Utanii end, subbed Hissatsu...) but I know that I won't be able to manage something different that fhjdhfdskjhfksjdfhksjdhkfdsjfhdkh *___________________* And incoherent blabbering. My mother already thinks I'm crazy because whenever a news is published, I start squeeing incontrolabely and jumping. Or kissing my posters, which I admit it's a bit freakish.

Thank you for all of you who commented to the previous entry &hearts; I'm not very used to that happening either, so I think I just won't pick the phone up until he gets the clue :)

Also, the other day I went to a Japanese restaurant with my mother (♥) and on the way back I bought some Japanese sauces + curry in a Asiatic supermarket, three books and some clothes. So, because  [livejournal.com profile] chimericalyours asked, there are two photos of my new dress :) Sorry for the bad lighting, I took them after arriving home from the uni. Soooooooo, you can now see how I look like! (not like I intended to make it a secret, but I'm just not very fond of taking photos) :P

ageha: Made@Jounins (Eito // concert)
I've rewatched tonight the 47 concert with the subs. It made me remember why I love Eito so much and how fortunate I was to be able to see them live. Watching them like that, so raw, so natural, so them, made me nearly cry at some points. It's somehow stupid how much they matter to me, how much I care for someone who will never know who I am, but I don't regret it at all. I'm happy this way :)

Also, I wanted to ask you about a IRL-sort-of-thing... how do you turn down someone? I mean, there is that boy from class (whom which I nearly don't talk!) who has called me who weekends in a row to have a drink with him, with the excuse that the "going out zone" (to say it somehow) it's near to my house (which is true, but w/e). The thing is, I'm not interested in him at all, so I keep making excuses but there will be a point in which that will no longer work :/ I'm... just not brave enough to tell him I don't want straighforwardly D:

ageha: Made@Jounins (Eito // concert)
I've rewatched tonight the 47 concert with the subs. It made me remember why I love Eito so much and how fortunate I was to be able to see them live. Watching them like that, so raw, so natural, so them, made me nearly cry at some points. It's somehow stupid how much they matter to me, how much I care for someone who will never know who I am, but I don't regret it at all. I'm happy this way :)

Also, I wanted to ask you about a IRL-sort-of-thing... how do you turn down someone? I mean, there is that boy from class (whom which I nearly don't talk!) who has called me who weekends in a row to have a drink with him, with the excuse that the "going out zone" (to say it somehow) it's near to my house (which is true, but w/e). The thing is, I'm not interested in him at all, so I keep making excuses but there will be a point in which that will no longer work :/ I'm... just not brave enough to tell him I don't want straighforwardly D:

ageha: Made@Jounins (Yoko // Finger)
I was finally able to register to a Chinese forum <3 The visual reward was 24 photos with the hobo!beard of Ryo (of which I had only seen a couple), that I don't know whether to love or hate. It is hilarious nonetheless <3 I have also found Kyo to Kyo JS photos, a golden mine of Jwebs (oh, if I knew Chinese...) and lots of Subaru random photos. I wonder if I should repost some of this to the coms, but some of them are so old I'm afraid I'd be reposting something people have already seen.

*off to do chemistry problems*
ageha: Made@Jounins (Yoko // Finger)
I was finally able to register to a Chinese forum <3 The visual reward was 24 photos with the hobo!beard of Ryo (of which I had only seen a couple), that I don't know whether to love or hate. It is hilarious nonetheless <3 I have also found Kyo to Kyo JS photos, a golden mine of Jwebs (oh, if I knew Chinese...) and lots of Subaru random photos. I wonder if I should repost some of this to the coms, but some of them are so old I'm afraid I'd be reposting something people have already seen.

*off to do chemistry problems*