I think you need to do what's right for you. It's not always about being strong or cowardly. Maybe your way to get to Japan and stay there is different than say, mine, but that doesn't mean it won't necessarily happen. If it's something you really want then I know you can and WILL find a way to make it happen. At your own pace. In your own time. You don't have to go RIGHT NOW. Take your time. Finish your degree if that makes you feel safe. Study Japanese. Look into different options. But don't dream your life away and don't just call yourself a coward and give up. Because YOU CAN DO IT.
And it's never easy. We're always doubting ourselves, wishing we were stronger and had less issues (i'm the perfect example). But I think just the fact that you're recognizing and trying to face this conflict inside of you is already a step in the right direction. And you know, until you find your path here, you know you'll always have a place to stay and someone who wants you here ♥
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Date: 2010-01-07 06:21 am (UTC)I think you need to do what's right for you. It's not always about being strong or cowardly. Maybe your way to get to Japan and stay there is different than say, mine, but that doesn't mean it won't necessarily happen. If it's something you really want then I know you can and WILL find a way to make it happen. At your own pace. In your own time. You don't have to go RIGHT NOW. Take your time. Finish your degree if that makes you feel safe. Study Japanese. Look into different options. But don't dream your life away and don't just call yourself a coward and give up. Because YOU CAN DO IT.
And it's never easy. We're always doubting ourselves, wishing we were stronger and had less issues (i'm the perfect example). But I think just the fact that you're recognizing and trying to face this conflict inside of you is already a step in the right direction. And you know, until you find your path here, you know you'll always have a place to stay and someone who wants you here ♥
Take heart, querida. I love you <3